Ieri sera
 After all the rain, the evening was quite nice and cool.  Joby's spot was vibrant, with enormous yellow tulips on his headstone and the sunflower arrangements Terie and I made with silk flowers creating a border all the way around.  We sprinkled the outside of the border with brightly colored rose petals.  If a stranger were to walk over to the big oak tree at the corner of Sparkman-Hillcrest, he would know that this kid is loved.

Tom and I stayed in the backround while Josh and his mama stood together.  I'm so glad we're up here for Terie, and I am so glad we were able to spend yesterday with her.  And it was good for Josh.  He has some of his father's stoic-ness in him, and being with his mom helps him to grieve, too.  Josh called his dad yesterday, but they were on the phone for less than five minutes.

Tom has really been great for Terie.  I'm glad that we were there together.  We miss Joby so much...  I have trouble grappling with the reality and the permanence of what happened, and I don't know if that will ever change.  It seemed so surreal to walk out there with this little baby kicking inside me.  What a year....

This afternoon, Terie is coming over to help me with the baby room.  We now have a fully assembled crib (with the bedding on it!), glider, changing table and bookshelf.  The last piece of furniture we're getting is a little nightstand for the lamp and a music playing device... and to hold water for me while I'm breast feeding (apparently it is thirsty work).  I'm still washing clothing and blankets, and we have to assemble the swing and bouncer.  It is such a cheerful room!